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Feb. 29th, 2020 10:22 pm
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rxelyn: (epic fail)
Just a little more and the moon will be full, but the stream of moonlight that enters my room is really pretty, since I'm typing this in the dark, and the only thing illuminated would be the laptop screen and that beam of moonlight from way above. (my mother has been nagging at me to go to sleep, so yeah.)

I'm feeling waaay energetic, I think it sort of has to do with the alcohol that I downed this afternoon, mango and gin mixed, taste damn brilliant, and coupled with bittersweet chocolate and good, loud music... hmm. I think my mother would have killed me if she knew that our neighbor has snuck me alcohol, hoho.)

Anyway, my eldest brother is back from Taiwan! And he gave me two thumbdrives, like, finally! :D And a Domo-kun handphone holder! It's so cute! Haha, yes, I like Domo-kun because it looks so... straightforward. Lol.

The past few days were spent not on studying. I tried. But I fell asleep halfway. And only woke up to watch K.O3an guo. I know. I suck. And I want to watch Blood: The Last Vampire. And I also have been rewatching Samurai Champloo and overdosing on Atobe/Jiroh fanfic. x.x I am so dead for the upcoming exams... *headdesk*
rxelyn: (emoness)
and you should know that the lies won't hide your flaws
no sense in hiding all of yours
you gave up on your dreams along the way

I can fake with the best of anyone
I can fake with the best of em all
I can fake with the best of anyone
I can fake it all 

who's to know if your soul will fade at all
the one you sold to fool the world
you lost your self-esteem along the way

fake it x seether
rxelyn: (undone work)
Wasted an entire day today... I got home at about 3, and washed up and stoned before the laptop, loading up K.O3 and promptly crashed in bed from 4 to 8. D: Tried to read through my GP file, but gave up to watch Xiu. Haha, I'm so useless lah.

GP lecture was BORING!!! Four complete hours of stoning, I tell ya. I'm eternally grateful that my class is highly quirky, so I ended up being entertained by those around me. Lol, the conversation topics are damn random, from various 'gay' cartoon characters to discussing about SJ and fairytales and patriotic songs, while keeping an eye out for teachers who would catch us for our disruptive behavior.

Ended up having lunch with some of the guys and Sharon and later went back with Shaun who is highly interesting to talk to.

Sadly, there's math tomorrow. And I'm still streaming K.O3. I think tomorrow will be some sort of a replay for today in which I'll probably stay up watching drama till like 3 and getting so tired midday that I'll just sleep away the afternoon and watch the cycle restart itself. And speaking of restarting, my laptop is getting a little temperamental. Anyone has any idea what does it mean by 'Kernel Processor Power: The speed of processor 0 is being limited by system firmware. The processor has been in this reduced performance state for 4 seconds since the last report.' I can't really ask my eldest brother since he's away in Taiwan for work currently and my second brother's timings are opposite of mine, (when I wake up, he's already gone to work, when I'm asleep, he comes home.)
rxelyn: (nevermore)

ACJC versus VJC

14th May; I realised that I didn't post anything about VJ's concert, since it was pretty late already when I got back and sadly, there was the unappealing element of school the next day. So I procrastinated and didn't post until today after I noticed that I needed to post about AC's concert as well.

This year was also their 25th anniversary, so the repertoire for the night consisted of chosen songs that they have sung in their history, mostly competition pieces though. There was a wide range of styles but I found some songs to be pretty boring though the choir was decent in portraying the various emotions behind the songs. I remember liking their version of 'O Magnum Mysterium' as well as 'Confitemini Domini'. Their two syf pieces were also very nicely done. There were also a few chinese songs, mostly sung by their alumni.

... I like their repertoire! Why don't we ever get to sing such songs... instead of all those loud, tribalish types of songs. Haha, I want to borrow Kim's scores, at least for Kyrie and Piyutim. Lol, need to find time to meet up with Kim to mug as well. Personally, I prefer their alumni to the current choir, they sound much better. I remember preferring the alumni's songs as well during last year's concert. Also bumped into Shin Fen who was there with her friends.

Yeah, I sort of noticed that choirs like to reuse their concert titles, like VJ having their Symphony of Voices and AC using An Evening with Friends, etc. Why? Hmm.
rxelyn: (gold sunset)

my spoils of the day: Trainspotting by Irvine Welsh, Samurai Champloo and Demon Diary. Three random pairs of earrings and ACJC choir concert notes.

So I sort of abandoned math remedial to hang out with Faza. In which we went to Cineleisure to watch Star Trek but epicly failed by not checking the time slots beforehand. There was only one time slot and we missed it by half an hour or so. And Lido's only screening time was at 9pm. D: (but there's aways torrents to rely on.)

Ended up having lunch at Pastamania and later went onto Suntec to some book fair thing in which there was a lack of good books (and an abundance of chinese books) so I ended up buying manga which were cheaper than normal, though there were a lot of sucky titles around as well. (I want to rewatch Samurai Champloo!)

After a few rounds of aimless wondering, we ended up going shopping instead, in which I saw quite a number of stuff that I wanted to buy, mainly shoes, except that I can't walk in heels and expect myself to not trip unglamorously.

Faza left at about 7pm, leaving me behind as I went on to watch ACJC's choir concert at the Esplanade. (and also the reason why I chose to go to the Suntec book fair instead of some Da Vinci exhibition at the science center, heh.) It's quite strange going to a concert alone and sitting beside random strangers, but I find that I don't mind, and it's like pretty cool in that sense? Haha, anyway, I'll be alone for the Moscow Chamber Choir thing as well.

The concert ended at about 9 plus, and I then spent about an hour hanging around HMV. At first, I was just going in to check out whether they had Patrick Wolf's new album, in which they did, at freaking $28. (I am highly in doubt of their prices after charging me $28.50 for AFI's Decemberunderground where I found it at $20 somewhere else.) But I ended up hanging around more because I suddenly saw that they were airing Laraku's newest live concert dvd! Although I was listening to Damaris, I suddenly recognized Hyde's voice from the speakers and I was like :DDDD and I immediately turned my attention to the tv sets and watched for quite some time. Haha. It wasn't until the fact that I was afraid there weren't any trains left that made me leave.

So yeah, quite a fun day out, but NO STAR TREK! ):

(ended up spending $12 on food; $7 on coffee; $5 on earrings; $10 on manga; $9 on book; $2 on file: a total of $45?! OMFG)
rxelyn: (emoness)
年紀越輕的時候,似乎真的就越是沒有煩惱,腦袋裡想的事... 就是這麼單純~
好希望能夠擁有哪個電動玩具主機,哪片遊戲卡帶... 諸如此類看似無聊~卻對當時的我有著非凡意義的事物
現在想起來... 那樣天真而單純,無憂無慮的時光,好像已經離自己好遠好遠了~

things to do during the June holidays will include:
♠ watching movies: Star Trek (liek, finally!) and Blood: The Last Vampire (:DDD)
♠ catching up with various doramas: X Family; San Guo; Supernatural; Glee
♠ going to concerts: ACJC choir concert and Moscow State Chamber Choir :3
♠ revising my work: Literature (hopefully with Faza); GP; History; Econs; Maths (I really really need to do so!) D:
♠ cleaning up: my room in general and catch up with filing and getting rid of useless post-its and reorganizing my bookshelf
♠ growing up: trying to find your pace in life, doing things that will make oneself smile, watching the skies, catching up with friends!
rxelyn: (ianto and phones)
I'm freaking annoyed by the goddamn prevalent mocca ads. The more I hear the bloody clickclick sound, the more I want to find the company and slap some sense into the advertising team. >.> I would mute my speakers, except that I want to listen to my music as well.

Anyway, on to more cooler stuff, K.03an Guo! :DDD Even though there's no Jiro or Danson, there's still Xiu! *hearts* and a lot of relatively unknown people (at least to me, since I rarely indulge in tw dramas).

(ahem, yes this is actually the ost cover, but never mind! it conveys the point.)

yeah, although I still haven't finished X Family, which is the prequel, nor am I ever going to complete KO One, which is the first in the entire series, I'm already starting on the third installment. That's mostly because you don't exactly need much prior knowledge. The only character that seems to be constant in all three series seems to be Xiu alone. (the others do make certain cameos, but they are not that important.

picspam! :D )
rxelyn: (Default)
Life has sort of revolved around choir these past few days, but it's all finally coming to an end! :D

Although I wouldn't say that the performance for the 25th anniversary was bad, it could have been better, but I enjoyed my moments on stage. Cloudburst was super fun to sing, hearing the sound dip and swell accordingly, and I like the tinkling sounds that the wind chimes thing produced. The finale thing was a little ... -.-||| though. Haha, I have no idea how to phrase that into proper words without demeaning the efforts of the people who produced/performed it. The flowers that Sneha and the others and Navin gave are currently sitting in a vase beside my table, looking very pretty :D

The new exco of 0910 was announced during practice just now, in which we ended like super early because there wasn't real practice as Mr Kwei wasn't coming down. Yeah, I was quite amused by the 'speech' that the new bass sl gave, 'we must own'. Haha, spoken like a true gamer, in which he and Ren Zhi and Hong Zhi were discussing about DOTA and Pokemon during lunch at Pizza Hut. Yes, I was bored enough to join them, the internet wasn't shiney enough to entertain me, though I'm not sure that hanging out with the guys would have been entertaining, but oh well, I was hungry.

In total, I think I've spent about 1 and 1/2 years in AJchoir, in which I have to really say that I enjoyed my J1 year more, the sound that we had was much more impressive, though I wasn't as close to the people... not that I'm that close, but at least I know them more... Ah well, no big deal, since that's exactly how I operate through life, just drift by and do my own thing.

Anyway, school has been irritating, I am so not up for that bloody math test on Wednesday, 'hello failure, we've been very well acquainted, haven't we?' But it's a relief that June is finally creeping up, in the sense that I have got some time to catch up with everything. And I mean everything. I seriously haven't been paying much attention to real life...
rxelyn: (O RLY?)

in the end, we’ll all be either dust or eaten up by WORMS, there is really no escape, so honestly, we might as well love ourselves while we’re alive.
taken from here

sometimes, I think I think too much, and it's beginning to be irritating. I'm not sure whether other people notice it, but yeah, I'm irritated with myself.

it wasn't exactly a good day today, not that I have any criteria for good/bad days anymore... now, I just want every single day to pass by without anything troublesome popping up. I'm also currently feeling very broke, considering that there's so many things I want to buy, namely cds, and also concerts that I want to watch. D:

I'm also in the midst of reinventing myself... (note to self) though I still haven't exactly worked out the kinks, but I want to take great strides in leading a life that I would be proud to call my own, instead of following the masses, not that there's anything wrong, but surely, there has got to be more to life? Wouldn't it be cool to wake up to the calls of wildlife instead of that bloody alarm clock, do meditative exercises before breakfast, discuss theology and philosophy with the like-minded, travel the world to learn about anthropology and learning to embrace one's own culture. (seriously, I really need to re-pick up my mandarin.) Of course, there's also the idea of adapting to a complete different diet as well as taking note of the changing seasons and festivals, learning the properties of certain plants, etc.

Back to listening to Finnish metal again, haha. Stratovarius is really epic. (maybe I'll do a review later) And I really really need to go raid my brother's computer for old/new stuff, my bandwidth is too slow to support all my addictions, from anime (FMA, 07-Ghost, Kuroshitsuji) to tv series (x family, bof, shigeshoshi) to music (shin, the rasmus)...

Right. Since I'm not doing any homework/anything productive... I might as well just go off and sleep already... considering that I intend to start and finish my history essay tomorrow. And I hope Literature won't be too mind-blowing... really don't like BNW and Herland. *head desk*
rxelyn: (ehhh)
... spent the past hour tidying up my room. No real reason, just looking at the clutter suddenly made me feel all... uneasy, so I started clearing stuff away. It's still the same mess, just a little tamer than before...

The entire day was spent unproductively... just like all my other weekends. Woke up a little before 1 because my mother, annoyed that she to see that even after returning from the market I'm still curled up in bed wasting time, knocked on my door loudly and yelled at me to get up. Not very pleasant to wake up to, so I lazed around in bed, wondering about how certain characters I have would react in certain situations. Until my mother told me to hurry up and eat lunch so that she can clear the table...

Then I wasted more time fiddling with my phone, trying to customise stuff, learning how to toggle between screens, etc. And read some books, one of which I just reviewed. Played some piano, walked around my house... haha, I was really bored, huh.

Right, then I watched a few hours of tv, from 7:30 to about 1, with breaks interspersed so that I could use the laptop, from Legend of the Condor Heroes, which is sadly going to end tomorrow!! to Boys over Flowers, even though I have watched the first few episodes before already, to Guess x3 which I mostly listened to while I read some meta posts.

And now... I shall go sleep so that I can wake up in time to entertain my aunts when they come down tomorrow. What a wonderful way to spend a Sunday morning...
rxelyn: (Default)

Karen Chance's Touch the Dark is another one of those typical urban fantasy books that you see alongside Laurell K. Hamilton's Anita Blake series, Rachel Caine's Weather Warden, etc. It's nothing mind blowing, but it's still pretty interesting, in the sense that we have the main character Cassie, being raised by her enemies, thrown right from the start into the dark side, she is more understanding of the monsters then other similar characters.

The plot is pretty decent, but the writing could be improved upon. Nothing wrong with grammer or such, just the style. Some parts of the story didn't flow very smoothly, the writing was too choppy in the sense that the scenes didn't have proper transitions... which made it quite hard to follow properly.

Cassie Palmer is able to see ghosts as well as glimpses of the past/fpresent/future. Her talent makes her very useful to Antonio, a money grubbing vampire who makes use of her visions to earn more money. Knowing Antonio's role in her parents' death, Cassie runs away and hides, for a few years, until now, her past has caught up with her.

She's dragged into a 'confrontation' in which she starts to gain even more powers, from travelling in time to possessing people. Which makes her even more powerful than Anita Blake. *sarcastic tone* at least Anita Blake takes about 2-3 books before she starts gaining new powers...

The characters are basically not used properly, even the 'twist' in story was silly... and they all seem very cliched. I mean, even the sex scene was boring... and sort of unnecessary. I mean, look at Cassie, who seems to be freaking out over the stupid stuff, she doesn't even channel the 'fuck you, I'm in charge' attitude that Anita Blake has. While I know that comparisons are unfair, but it is hard not to draw such parallels when writers keep rehashing the same issues in the same genres. I don't expect mind blowing new stuff, but more originality?

Okay... I don't exactly like this series, but I think it'll be quite easy to read as light reading material.
rxelyn: (omgyay!)

Finally. A new phone! :D But it's not that new exactly. Yeah, it's another one of my brother's phone, but it's so much better than the old nokia phone that I was carrying around. And yes, also the reason why I was distracted the entire day from doing proper work

While it is indeed an improvement, but it's sort of troublesome as well, from additional programs like accessing the internet to outlook notes... well, I certainly need to get adjusted... so eh, might be a bit slower with replying texts and such.

Also, my contact list has been lost, so well, whoever who reads this and wants me to know their number, please text me. :D
rxelyn: (gold sunset)
While Stajeworks' Spotlights and Lanterns had a script that consisted of cliched themes and mundane situations, the actors did brilliantly in their respectively roles in portraying the feelings and quirks of the characters.

I didn't really like the first story, in which a top student killed himself from parental pressure, or at least that was what everyone seemed to think. Instead, it might have been the words of his friend that drove him to the edge. While I felt that the use of staging was good, the dialogue and the emotions that they actors were trying to portray wasn't overly convincing... The mother-son relationship was disappointing, in the sense that I didn't feel the mother's remorse or guilt when she realized that her son's death may be caused by her. And the friend's expression of jealousy and disbelief was... a bit bland. The second story, which was basically a conversation held in a supermarket, was quite funny, but... I didn't really like it all that much, there a bit of... suspended disbelief, in the sense that, would two completely random stranger strike up a conversation that had intimate topics... I liked the third story, the use of lighting and the characters were very effective in depicting the relationship between grandmother and grandson. The longest story was also the last, in which the main character wonders whether it really possible to live life according to her own values or would the real world suppressed her feelings.
rxelyn: (Default)
Argh, literature essay due tomorrow.

I am so going to be slaughtered... I'm still stuck on the bloody first paragraph, and I'm darn sleepy already... >.>

Some things that I want to post:
- a Roy/Ed ship manifesto + personal recs for future references
- Wolverine review
- VJ concert review
- Sanguine chapter

... D: I don't get what's wrong with the thing... I mean... why cannot detect?!
rxelyn: (emoness)
I don't care if I'm going to get screwed for not finishing the Brave New World questions. I'm still stuck at chapter 12 and I'm too irritated with everything to really care. I don't think that there was anything that set me off, but am feeling quite... angsty these few days, for want of a better word. Am getting very irritable, in which I would like the entire world to vanish and leave me alone.
rxelyn: (emoness)
I think the most cruel thing someone can do to you would be to deny your existence. I'm not sure whether I phrased this correctly, but I have this friend who was so mad at her father's incompetence that she yelled something along the lines of 'if you two had stopped giving birth after my sister and I, then we wouldn't have all these problems.' Their situation is pretty terrible actually, father is ill with cancer, mother has to take care of two younger children, both below 10, hence there isn't much steady income and rising medical bills. My friend had to stop school for now to work, so that at least they still have some money to tide them over. Her eldest sister is working as well, and studies at a private school at night, so there's also school bills to take care of. It's not that my friend doesn't love her younger siblings, but more of the fact that life would be much easier without the extra mouths to feed. Or something along those lines.

I guess I was luckier back then, where no one saw me as a burden. Or if they did, they politely didn't discuss it loudly within earshot. Considering that I was only one person and generally quite mild, and the fact that my mother had plenty of friends and neighbours who were willing to 'adopt' me... yeah...

Hence it makes me sort of pissed off at my cousin's attitude towards her babysitter who happens to be my neighbour. So what if her kid caught chickenpox and a cold, he got them from the germs passing around in his kindergarten, not in her house. I don't get how she can blame the sitter. Who is kind enough to look after her two kids for like what, $500? She not only looks after them, she teaches them as well, small stuff, like reading and maths, etc. I had first hand experience, back when I was in primary school and my mother didn't trust me enough to be a latch key kid, I went over to her house everyday after school, where I had freedom to the entire collections of Enid Blyton, and those classics kind of books. And free tuition... not that I want to... but she saw my terrible math grades and started making me do assessment books in which she will mark and go through my mistakes. Okay, digression, but still, my cousin is being darn ungrateful if she cannot see beyond the small problems. And really, my nephew is one giant hell of a brat, I want to slap him every single time he starts wailing. Even when he's not bothering me directly, he still annoys me with the amount of noise he generates. At least his little brother is better behaved and more... endearing.
rxelyn: (epic fail)
Argh, FMA just hooked me in AGAIN. I can't believe it. I'm a complete sucker for such storylines. I'm not only re-reading the manga series, or at least up to what we have, which is like... 8 books behind the series currently, I'm watching remake of the anime as well, currently up to episode 5, and the worst is not yet out. I'm also finding fanfiction and meta posts. I most likely cannot sit through a lecture of Herland/Brave New World without going, 'Dude, this book is boring, yada yada yada' but I can read entire essays on the homunculi as well as characterizations on FMA.
rxelyn: (gold sunset)
I finally caved and watched Full Metal Alchemist Brotherhood. AND THE ANGST AND DRAMA... *flails about in a mess*. Damn it, I knew it was going to be that sad and painful, but here I am again, voluntarily watching it and going on the same ride that I had taken a few years ago.

The first series had 51 episodes, and a different storyline from the original manga. I'm not sure how this one will turn out but I really hope there's a proper happy ending this time. I don't think I can handle it if all the terrible events continued to worsen and the Elric brothers don't get what they deserved in the end. D: 

I'm currently only on the 2nd episode and already... the angst... it can only get worse, but I don't think it will be as terrible as the original. I mean, the whole flashback to the past where Ed and Al broke the taboo on human transmuation and paid the price... it was already quite toned down as compared to the first series where I remembered I sort of cried... because I'm a inner wuss like that...

Oh well, there's always fanfiction... where we can all manipulate stuff to our own liking and I frankly for one am looking forward to reading meta posts by other more indepth researchers, haha.

In other news, have been overdosing on Torchwood fanfics... to the extent that I'm neglecting my literature assignment... as well as adding new memories to the Torchwood sections. To think that I was originally nosing around for Supernatural stuff instead, haha.

Also, internet has been ungodly SLOW today. Wtf, really. Even without my brother being home to eat up the bandwidth, I find that loading my email can take up to 5 minutes before it times out and I got to keep refreshing the bloody page. Gah.
rxelyn: (writing)
title: four types of boyfriend that Delwyn isn't (and the one type that he is.)
universe: capriccio
type: drabble-ish oneshot?
pairing: established Xavier/Del
notes: ... I was feeling random? XD excuse the sap, I'm just tired. The timeline jumps about a fair bit as well, it should be obvious, but hey, why not just mention it? Haha. Also, implicit mentions of sex, if that doesn't float your boat, don't read.

fucking LJ nearly ate this post )



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