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go away, world. I'm ignoring you.
Aug. 20th, 2008 09:55 pmFirst day back and already a shit load of work waiting for me.
Thanks, world. I really do feel the love. No, really.
Still not really coping with school. It's all so surreal. I want to believe that this is all a dream. Or that I can rewind time and go back to Girton.
Managed to weedle our way out of the econs timed practice. But there's still the common test on Friday testing on monopoly. Which I have no clue of because we missed all the lectures being away.
And apparently there's history common test next Wednesday.
Oh and the freaking maths test tomorrow.
You see how much I look forward to life already?
Skipped choir this afternoon, just wasn't in the end to go, you know. How can I sing when my mood is just so bad?
And I've sort of been thinking of quitting choir. I mean, why stay in a cca that makes me miserable?
Don't get me wrong, I do love singing, it's an inherent part of me to sing, whether it be out loud or inside me. Without music, I'll just wither.
But choir just depress me. I'm not too sure why, but the thought of choir... just makes me miserable.
This wasn't the case back in Kranji. Sure, I may bitch about the practices but I still like going to the choir room and singing along with the rest of the members. Here... I don't feel the enjoyment of singing, instead, there seems to be an air of pented up frustration or something.
Anyway, went back home and just slept. From 4 to 8 pm. Haha, when my mother woke me for dinner, I nearly thought it was the next day already and that I have to prepare for school. Which made me so pissed off. Because, school. Like what?! Luckily, that wasn't the case.
And I had a great dinner, sticky Japanese rice (the only type that I like), a large plate of salmon sashimi, one of my favourite food. I think my mother noticed that I wasn't feeling too happy and tried to cheer me up with the food that I like. How does she know? Well, it doesn't help that I'm sort of constantly bitching about how I have to come back and no, I don't miss anything or anyone here. Why should I?
Thanks, world. I really do feel the love. No, really.
Still not really coping with school. It's all so surreal. I want to believe that this is all a dream. Or that I can rewind time and go back to Girton.
Managed to weedle our way out of the econs timed practice. But there's still the common test on Friday testing on monopoly. Which I have no clue of because we missed all the lectures being away.
And apparently there's history common test next Wednesday.
Oh and the freaking maths test tomorrow.
You see how much I look forward to life already?
Skipped choir this afternoon, just wasn't in the end to go, you know. How can I sing when my mood is just so bad?
And I've sort of been thinking of quitting choir. I mean, why stay in a cca that makes me miserable?
Don't get me wrong, I do love singing, it's an inherent part of me to sing, whether it be out loud or inside me. Without music, I'll just wither.
But choir just depress me. I'm not too sure why, but the thought of choir... just makes me miserable.
This wasn't the case back in Kranji. Sure, I may bitch about the practices but I still like going to the choir room and singing along with the rest of the members. Here... I don't feel the enjoyment of singing, instead, there seems to be an air of pented up frustration or something.
Anyway, went back home and just slept. From 4 to 8 pm. Haha, when my mother woke me for dinner, I nearly thought it was the next day already and that I have to prepare for school. Which made me so pissed off. Because, school. Like what?! Luckily, that wasn't the case.
And I had a great dinner, sticky Japanese rice (the only type that I like), a large plate of salmon sashimi, one of my favourite food. I think my mother noticed that I wasn't feeling too happy and tried to cheer me up with the food that I like. How does she know? Well, it doesn't help that I'm sort of constantly bitching about how I have to come back and no, I don't miss anything or anyone here. Why should I?
